mercies in disguise

today my man and I are working at the land - doing some clean-up and other things and
marvelling in the beautifully warm day that God has given to us.
it began with some rain showers

today while I was outside I heard the sound of a Blue Jay
and saw it ~ the first Blue Jay sighting on this land this spring
Blue Jays are "kisses" from God to me
just like the little fuzzy yellow caterpillars are also little blessings in disguise.

God is like that
I believe anyhow - that He loves to give us little glimpses of himself through creation
and I am thankful.

this past week has been a week deep in reflection.
it began with my coffee with Jo
and our discussion about life - about gifts/blessings - about hard stuff
Josie lets me go there alot with her
and I appreciate that we can still talk to others about our journey these past 2.5 years.

while drinking coffee at Tim Horton's
a little boy came over to our window
a cute little guy
and when I asked his mom how old he was
I was right .... he was the age our little Jay would have been
I watched him and felt our loss deeply

the other day I reflected on losing my mom 15 years ago
and how the thought of her being in heaven with our Jay brought me comfort
the constant tension of heaven and earth
plays out often in my thoughts
and my imagination

this song that I share with you today
has resonated with my heart since the first time I heard it
I think you will know why,
if you read the lyrics


Blessings
song written and sung by Laura Story

We pray for blessings

We pray for peace

Comfort for family, protection while we sleep

We pray for healing, for prosperity

We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while, You hear each spoken need

Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear

We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

All the while, You hear each desperate plea

And long that we’d have faith to believe

When friends betray us

When darkness seems to win

We know that pain reminds this heart

That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments

Or the aching of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy

What if trials of this life

The rain, the storms, the hardest nights

Are your mercies in disguise

(I also posted on daring2liveFULLY4him.blogspot.com)