I want to dance.

It has been a week of not blogging.
It has been a hard week - but not because I didn't blog.
Hard because I have had time - since I am not working, I have had ALOT of time.
To think
To journal
To walk
To cry
To talk and share with a couple people where I am at
To pray
To listen
To wait
Did I say... to wait.
Wait some more
To wonder
To hope. That is huge in my life. H-O-P-E. HOPE.

My thoughts are all taking me closer to the heart of my Lord - or at least I want to believe they are. In my scattered ramblings and conversations with the Almighty - I love to think that they are all okay - coming the way I am into his presence.
Coming broken.
Still - so broken.

But in the pit of my being - I feel like I am wanting to dance.
If I knew how! (good girls didn't dance when I grew up! Dancing was not part of a christian's vocabulary. I am so glad this has changed)
I want to dance.
Inside me - I know that when I am home alone, I can close my eyes and move - I guess that is dancing.
I can hardly wait to hold my little grandbaby in my arms and dance!
No one is going to tell me that I am dancing the wrong steps!!
Or if they are - I won't be listening.

I want to dance with the Trinity.
In Colorado Springs, while at the School of Spiritual Direction - Dr. Crabb talked with us about "dancing with the trinity!"

I want to dance...
I want to finally step out of this stuff that I am in, and dance like there is no tomorrow!! Or should I say - I want to dance like no one's watching.
Yesterday - dancing was far from my thoughts.
Today - it is back again -
Tomorrow - who knows.

But - I want to dance. O Lord - can we have this dance? You lead Lord - you lead.

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A couple weeks ago, once again, I heard a song by Leeanne Womach, I HOPE YOU'LL DANCE - and it is beautiful. I heard it and it felt like my heart resonated with it - here are the words:

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance..........

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Livin' like me, takin' chances, but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin',
Don't let some Hell bent heart leave you bitter,
If you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
and wonder where those years have gone.)

Leeann Womach