Of what should I write ...

 Of what shall I write...

Of what shall I write

As the clock makes its way closer to the midnight hour 

And the last day of this year turns before our eyes

From 2025 to the first few minutes of a new year 2026

Of what shall I write

As my mind thinks back over

12 months

52 years

365 days

All filed and stamped PAST

Of what shall I write

Sadness, sorrows, disappointments 

That are wrapped in and through the year

Of which we remember and keep tucked away deep within our heart

As if bringing them forward would remind us of pain, grief

And maybe of unanswered prayers

Even though we knew we had asked God to answer in his time and in his way, and will

Of what shall I write

Of joys too many that neither time nor ink would allow

Of laughter - shhhh my heart ~ Can you hear it?

Of times with family, so deeply embedded into this Mama/Granny’s heart

Of seeing my three adult kids who I love and am so proud of, loving and supporting each other through the year

Of watching my grandchildren 

As they grow almost overnight

And give me the chance to hoot and holler

To encourage and cher

 To capture memories with my camera 

To boast over, to hold, to tuck away and to ponder

Be still my heart!

Of what shall I write

Of times sitting beside the man I’ve loved for 51 of met 67 years

Of the love and support 

And to mention prayers spoken in silence

Gratitude's breathed to God in the dark silence

As I lay beside him in bed with my hand on him as he sleeps

Of what shall I write

Of memories mad as we ministered

Of the sound of people singing, praying

Sharing, worshipping

A foretaste of heaven

As my soul soaked it all in\as ministry closed and we stay with memories and thanksgiving

My soul … be still my soul

Of what shall I write

As I think of the lasts I have celebrated here

And the threshold we are standing in now

The threshold between what was and was will be

The past and the future

Not knowing

Not anxious

Now worried

But certain its all under the sovereign care of our Almighty God

Whom we love and serve and desire to put first in all things

Of what shall I write

There is so much

So many emotions

So many experiences

So many answered prayers

So much love

Ink and words could not capture

Be still my heart and soul

Ponder

Reflect

Let gratitudes flows the last minutes of 2025 turn to the first minutes of 2026

Of this will I write

All is well

Happy New Year!

j