This is what I know ... at least for today

This is what I know … at least for today

I am warm

I am safe

I am so loved

I am feeling peace in the depth of my soul

There is no storm to run and take refuge from

At least not right now

But I am not naive enough to think that a storm will not come

When I least expect it.

I am glad I am not in the midst of a storm

I look out the window

As night has fallen once again

And all is dark

But I hear the wind blow

The chimes give it away

Along with the whistle of wind over things on my deck

It always seems stronger when the night is dark

And one can not see the wind causing the snow to blow in gusts

That fly into your face should you be out walking

Causing one to pull flaps down over ears, and coat collars tight around ones neck

I am glad I am not outside

The light in the. Yard has come on

Illuminating our front yard and part of the neighbours

It is funny how a little light can make a place more inviting

I love the light and often have the house lit up like a fourth of July fireworks

Whereas my husband would much rather turn lights off and only leave one or two shining

But as I age, I feel like my eyes need more light

I am glad that I can still see where I am going, 

And can see the light shining on my path.

It is still inside

Only the sound of the wind

Sound of the chimes

And the strong exhale of my husband as he sits beside a puzzle

Trying to do with one eye, what he normally does with two

Recovering from eye surgery will do that to a person.

It is quiet in this place

We are quiet.

I am glad that we enjoy the company of each other

And allow for times when presence is more important than words.

There is something about this day

The one that gave way to night about an hour ago

The calm breath of a Sunday

We both stayed home from church today, just because

Today, we both just needed to be home

I just wanted to be here where it was quiet, still, and just the two of us

It has been peaceful as I have sat in the chair that I also came to at 5 this morning

When the night paused and I awoke

And ambled upstairs

With warm fuzzy blanket, heating pad, and nice lazy boy chair

I am glad for those times to wake early, change locales and to just be

There is something about life these days

The quick and hurried pace of retreat ministry

Has given way to a slow intentional time

Of rest

Of conversation

Of a few cups of coffee

And a lot of time dedicated to allowing the body to slow down

To rest and to recover

To renew and restore

I am glad for these times in my life

Where what I have promoted for the past 13 years, 

I am able to experience myself.

LOVE is with me

LOVE is around me and within me

I am exceptionally content

In a place that I have not witnessed in quite this way before, or ever

A place I can not fully put into words

A place within that feels new and life-giving

While waiting in a threshold of my life

I am glad I can feel this, and can anticipate the adventure ahead with much hope.

And I am fully at peace

Without delay and right on time

Night has come

And this is what I know ... at least for today .