Saturday, May 7

mercies in disguise

today my man and I are working at the land - doing some clean-up and other things and
marvelling in the beautifully warm day that God has given to us.
it began with some rain showers

today while I was outside I heard the sound of a Blue Jay
and saw it ~ the first Blue Jay sighting on this land this spring
Blue Jays are "kisses" from God to me
just like the little fuzzy yellow caterpillars are also little blessings in disguise.

God is like that
I believe anyhow - that He loves to give us little glimpses of himself through creation
and I am thankful.

this past week has been a week deep in reflection.
it began with my coffee with Jo
and our discussion about life - about gifts/blessings - about hard stuff
Josie lets me go there alot with her
and I appreciate that we can still talk to others about our journey these past 2.5 years.

while drinking coffee at Tim Horton's
a little boy came over to our window
a cute little guy
and when I asked his mom how old he was
I was right .... he was the age our little Jay would have been
I watched him and felt our loss deeply

the other day I reflected on losing my mom 15 years ago
and how the thought of her being in heaven with our Jay brought me comfort
the constant tension of heaven and earth
plays out often in my thoughts
and my imagination

this song that I share with you today
has resonated with my heart since the first time I heard it
I think you will know why,
if you read the lyrics

song written and sung by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy

What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

(I also posted on


Phoebe said...

Joy, I've heard this song a couple times this week on the radio and thought of your family countless times when it comes on, perhaps it was intercession as I sang along and remembered Jay.
Love, Phoebe

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